Today...

As I was walking into my Anthropology final a girl in the class, out of no where, called me a "lesbian fucktard" for no reason.

Why is it okay to use a part of someone and twist it into hate speech?

It shouldn't bother me anymore but it does. I'm genuinely hurt and angry and exhausted.

ManPants: the project that ate my life

So I finished my project about spending a day dressed as a man. Holy Cheese it took me over 10 hours to finish editing the video and I did a pretty shoddy job of it and then wrote one of the worst papers I've ever written. It was one of those wow-this-doesn't-make-a-lot-of-sense-but-I-don't-have-time papers. Awesome.

Here's hoping that 20% of my grade didn't just vanish into nothing.

To be honest the project became half for my soc class and half for this class looking at gender and how it's constructed and how it relates to me. It was incredibly important to me to take it seriously and give it everything I could.

Interestingly my parents and my sister literally laughed at me and my efforts and refused to recognize that this was personally emotionally significant for me. As a result I'm still mad at them and they're confused and annoyed. This should be fun.

In case you're wondering I'm very aware that I didn't manage to pass and I look really bizarre in the photo.

I decided to prepare it in the form of a video diary because I can get my thoughts out much faster that way. I was annoyed that youtube made me split it into two parts because of the length. It essentially comes out to 17 minutes of gender based navel gazing but whatever.

Ladies and Gentlemen, I give you "ManPants: A Day as a Dude"!!

This just in:

My life has continued to explode even harder.

Turns out I have a test this morning in my govt 110 class on top of my papers in my soc 348 and govt 300 classes plus the major project in my 348 class. (At least I saved my major f*ckup until the last leg this year.)

still scrambling. More details at ten.